the end of another week

Here we are at the end of another week. I don't know about you lot but I seem to be having a lot of trouble getting a decent night's sleep over the last few weeks. Maybe its just me, perhaps its some mystical force giving me a glimpse of what life is going to be like with a baby in the house!

We had a bit of a scare this week, Nic visited the midwife & was told L'il Vamp had an irregular heartbeat & she had to go to the hospital straight away to get it checked out. She text'd me asking me to leave work so I could drive her to the hospital. Obviously we were both very worried about this, neither of us knew what this would mean but we were both preparing ourselves for the worst. Once the nurse had hooked Nic up to the heart monitor she said " I take it the midwife told you this can be quite normal at this stage of the pregnancy", well as it happens.....NO SHE BLOODY DIDN'T. Now if the midwife had told us this we would have still gone to the hospital a bit apprehensive but we would not have been the nervous wrecks that we were. It is really unfair when something like this happens, okay so maybe we still had to go & get it checked out but the midwife should have realised how badly we would react to the news. Why don't these people realise what sort of problems they can be causing by not telling us it can be normal, it's not like we'd say sod going to the hospital if it can be normal. We were told everything seems to be okay, L'il Vamp's heart misses between every 4th & 15th beat but they said we shouldn't worry too much as he appears healthy in every other respect & after all, he's still in there for a reason, he's still growing & developing. Nic has another appointment in 2 weeks with the midwife so we'll have it checked again then. I was so angry that its a good job the midwife wasn't at the hospital, I may have slapped her if she was.

It feels so strange that in 6 weeks we should be holding this little child in our arms, the due date is 22nd feb. What sort of parents are we going to be, will he like us, will he totally stress out the cats!! My sister is moving in march so during the february half term she is going to bring us loads of other hand me downs from her 2 boys ( personally I think she's just making excuses so she can come & see her nephew ). My sis can't wait, I think she's more excited than us. Not sure if I told you before but when I went to see my sister & told her about the baby she said she was really happy that she was going to be an auntie. There's only me & my sister so I am her only chance to be an auntie on our side of the family, her husband's sister has 3 kids and he wasn't too impressed, he couldn't really see how much difference it makes with being an auntie to my kids instead of being an auntie by marriage.

Work was a little better this week, despite not getting much sleep at all the last few weeks it seems things slowly getting back to normal at work. Once again we are having a move round, people moving desks...but not me!! I have a nice desk next to the window, we have rows of desks & a few little clusters, mine's in one of the clusters which makes it a bit quieter than some of the others. I have so far managed to keep my desk during a few desk moves which is nice because it means I get to concentrate more due to it being a bit quieter than others. They have announced that we are to get 3 more people for our dept so that should make things better as we can still give the quality we do but the bosses will be on our backs less because we will obviously get more work done. We lost some of the team a few months ago when they were promoted but we have not been able to replace them until now. Our boss is on about organising a team night out soon, normally I stay away from these things as I have no desire to spend all day with these people & then end up having a boring night with them as well. There are a few people that I would socialise with but we can sort our own nights out ( & yes Poodle, you are one of them!!! ), we all get on at work but most of the people are not the kind I could enjoy a pint with. I've just read that back & it sounds a bit snobby but its not meant to, I suppose you all have people at work that you get on well enough with but would not want to go out socially with them.

I think I have bored you people enough for today, I apologise if I have not left comments on your journals recently but I find it difficult to make time these days. I do still try to keep up with my alerts but as I find more journals that I like I have less time to leave comments for you all.

Take care all....VampJack x