Man flu time again

I didn't update my journal last weekend because I was suffering with man flu. because of my cold I didn't do much, went to see a financial advisor at my bank about investing my damages money from the accident, it's all going towards our move to Spain. it could still take years before the right opportunity comes along but we are doing everything we can to try & make the move happen earlier rather than later. My friend from work has just come back from honeymoon in Costa Blanca, she was staying near where I used to live & when she was telling me about it the other day I felt so homesick. I had gone on holiday to Spain when I was younger but had never thought about moving out there, then a few years ago I was unemployed & finding it really difficult to get a decent job in England. An opportunity arose for me to go & work in Spain so I took it, to me it was just a chance of a job. But after only a couple of days over there I felt as though I finally found where I belonged. Growing up we moved around a bit as my dad was in the army, because of this I never really thought of anywhere as 'home', until I went to work in Calpe. I don't know if you will be able to understand quite how I felt but suddenly I felt as though I had somewhere I belonged. If it wasn't for the fact that I got ripped off by the company I worked for I would not have come back, but then again maybe it was fate...maybe I was supposed to realise that's where I should be but had to come back & meet Nic ( who has always wanted to live in Spain ) & have Jack before finally making a permanent move from England.

But back to the present, we've had a major change at work & to be honest it has been better than I expected. The only downside is that my dept is the one chosen to assist everyone else when needed during the transition period, but even with this little pain there does seem to be a general feeling of optimism in the office. But for me its sick leave time, yesterday morning about 9 ish I suddenly got a massive thumping headache, I never said anything because i thought it would just go away but this morning the pain was so bad I felt really sick & my vision was a bit blurry so I phoned in sick. Sounds like it might be a migraine but I will wait before going to see the doctor because I have never had migraine's before now & i'm not one of these people who go to the doctors every time they get an ache or pain. I will see how I am in the morning & decide then wether I go back tomorrow or not.

Even though I have been in a lot of pain today it has been nice to spend more time with my little man Jack. He has grown so much & even now i sometimes look at him & have to tell myself that he really is my son. Every time I come home from work or if i've been in town he gives me a big gummy smile & it amkes my day. My sister is coming over on saturday with my bro in law, their 2 boys & my mum. It's going to be really nice having them all over, my sister & nephews have been dying to meet Jack & this is the first chance they've had to visit, I can't wait.

Thats all for tonight, better not spend too much time in front of the pc if I want this headache to sod off...take care all....VampJack x