My broadband is still not connected at my new house & my works computer resource policy forbids me from using my pc to update any blogs...but today I really need to express my grief over the loss of my friend. I wrote this entry last night at home & today I really don't know why I came to work.
Today is a bad day, I found out a friend of mine died yesterday morning. Pepsi Tate was the bass player in the rock band Tigertailz. I met Pepsi years ago when I was just another fan & we became friends. He would always put my name on the guest list for Tigertailz’ shows all over the country, one time when I went along to the soundcheck during the day he asked if I was coming to the show that night, when I told him I couldn’t afford it he told me not to be stupid because I’m always on the guest list, I explained it was the taxi fare home that was the problem. I did go to the show that night, Pepsi had insisted on it, he gave me the taxi fare home himself.
Each time they toured I would go to as many shows as I possibly could, and I was always on the guest list & each night I would get to go backstage after the show. Pepsi always recognised me every time I turned up to the first night of the tour, sometimes he’d write letting me know about the tours in advance so I could let him know which shows I would be at.
I have not spoken to Pepsi for a while as we lost touch but he still remembered me when I got in touch a couple of years ago. We’d talk on the phone sometimes & we’d write occasionally (this was at a time before email made keeping in touch easier) but I would not consider it a close friendship. This made it all the more surprising today when I heard the news, I was stunned & had to take some time out from my desk to gather my thoughts. I feel so empty, I have lost some very close friends in the past so I am no stranger to grief but today I feel a great sadness. Pepsi was larger than life on stage & that is how I will always remember him, but I will also remember him as a Pepsi Tate the man. Pepsi died yesterday morning after losing his fight against pancreatic cancer.
It is difficult for me to share my feelings sometimes but I feel so emotional at the loss of my friend that if I don’t open up to someone I think I will start to slip back into depression. I suffered with depression for years but have been okay for some time now & do not want to go back to the fragile person I was when my depression was really taking over my life.
Pepsi you will be missed by a great many people. Goodbye my friend.
19th September 2007
Tigertailz
Pepsi & Jay
My journal entries will resume once my broadband is up & running, today I don't care what my bosses may say about me updating the journal. Some things are just too important
Pepsi live 2007
5 comments:
Look at that wonderful smile in that first picture!
Always remember that.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
Take Care..
~Terry
Aww, I was really touched by your story. Life is so precious. I hope that you are ok. x x x x Kirsty x x x x
So sorry about your friend. Although his life was short, he looks like he made the most of every minute. Remember him with happiness. Eileenx
Im so sorry about your friend. . . and those words came straight from the heart.
I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. It is always so difficult to deal with something like this. You are doing the right thing to voice your feelings. It will help you from feeling depressed. I encourage you to continue talking and writing about these things as they come up. It will really help.
I'll be thinking about you.
Hugs, Kathy
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